I still..

I still smile without you being the reason
I still eat without you asking me to nibble
I still sleep without you being there in the hallucination
I still look at my mobile knowing there's no more communication
I still speak without you being the resolution
I still live without any foundation

But my smile is no more real
And the food is no more subtle
And my sleep is no more effectual
My phone is all blank
And the speech is muffled
All you did is you've made my life an undecided puzzle.

Your love..

Loving you is not a crime

Loving you since you are mine 

Loving you without fear

Loving you with full care 

Love being always with you

Love to talk to you

Love to learn you

Love to teach you

Your love makes me dear

Your love makes me forget all the fear

Your love strengthens me

Your love mentions ME :D

You and I..

You said 4, I said no

You said yes, I said go

You left and I was cold

I said missed you 

You said who are you

I said we loved each other

You said now it's over

I said don't go

You said let's end the show 

I was destroyed

You went unswayed 

Please don't leave me..

You don't admit that you left 
I don't believe that you're still on the pact

Your words don't show that you're there
But I wanna believe that you still somewhere

You never saw me in your dreams 
To call you I always had to scream

You used to say we had <3 to <3 connection
But you yourself messed up the situation

Don't tell me I am another slut
Got into the trap of disgust

Baby I love you Baby I care
Please don't leave me like a despair

I know what you feel

When I see you writing I feel it

When I see you talking I feel it

When I see you noticing I feel it

When I see you hiding I feel it

When I see you feeling it seems I killed it.

Things changed and I felt it

Words changed and I felt it

Relations changed and I felt it

Thoughts changed and I felt it

When I actually felt it I had already left it.

I never call upon my past

I am happy with the cast

Conditions are same as before

But few things that existed are not anymore.

P.S. :- Another poem that I wrote for someone many days ago :D

Let it stay !!

I never wanted you to know

I never wanted me to show

I never wanted us to bear 

I never wanted the relation to smear

I never wanted fake love

I never wanted it to shove up

I never wanted you to be bound

I never wanted you to let yourself down

I always wanted to shine in you

I always wanted to be the prouder you

I always wanted you to smile

I always wanted to be under the same sky

But you won't understand

But you won't learn

That I can't live 

And I can't turn 

P.S. :- I always write what I feel but this is not what I feel today, it relates to my past but one of my loveliest piece ever :)

I meant it sometime but my feelings now are much more intense :)